Well, today started off good! Cycled the 4miles into uni..and the 4 miles back. I felt amazing, specially cycling up the hills. Felt the burn and it actually fel good. Weight myself and I have lost 2lbs...not as much as i'd like but its a start.
Today, I am starting this hardcore. Watch out, hopefully by the end of the month I will have lost a good amount of weight! As my bestfriend Samual, wants to go on holiday with me in august...ugh I would look like a beached wale on the beach. Not good.
Anyone have any tips? Anyone going through the same?? I cant even bring myself to look in the mirror, I cry when I see what I have become....ugly, fat. disgusting! Why cant I be skinny? Is it so much to ask?! As I sit here and write this blog, I just become angry. More at myself, for letting myself go, for letting myself go to the EDU's and hospital. Why must they help when I dont actually want it?
Well, its decided hardcore weightloss. Food is my enemy not my friend, Food will kill me. I so Wish i was skinny. To be beautiful one must be put through pain...you have to work hard for it...and I WILL.
I just want to be perfect
No comments:
Post a Comment