Day 7

well, I appologise for not writing yesterday...It became a very busy day. I had uni till 3pm and then I had to draw out A LOT of money for my car =D I officially have it, it is parked in the car park...but the seat is still fucked, driving it back was a giggle. The seat kept going back to the point i could reach the peddles, haha!! Ah well, i'll get it fixed! Love it though!!

After picking it up I went to give matt, my mate £10 for looking at my car hes pretty handy when it comes to cars....like builds cars from scrap! So it was only far, he dropped everything o come see the car! aha, plus it was also drinks on me for his leaving due that way, as hes moving to australia! haha,

I weighed myself, like i have been doing every day, lost 4 pounds....yeah not enough I know. Fat ugly whale that I am..but every little helps! I want to be skinny. I must lose weight, I know I can keep it up. I can feel it in my bones!! =D

This morning, went out for a cigerette and my lighter wouldnt work..badtimes!! But not to fear i went to my car...used the lighter in my car =D Never been so happy. i am an owner of a car!!!! ahhhhhhh. Tonight I am going out for my friends birthday. We have to dress up as cocktails, and i'm not feeling my cocktail very much...a tequila sunrise, I'll have a maxi dress to wear....everyone else will be in amazingly cool nice fitting outfits..though I am much t fat to wear anything nice =( Ahwell, I'll be abelt o wear things like that soon =D

I just want to be perfect, is that too much to ask?? i wish i was skinny, but i'm not and i would rather die than be this fat ugly whale i am at the moment. You have to work to be beautiful, and every pain, stress and heartbreak only helps you along the way.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny does!!!!!

so very true